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Everytime I turn around I see your face.

Im sorry, all of this was uncalled for. Just another morning, fighting with you. Ignoring my calls and so. You've again chosen to give up on this relationship. When all those months together was just blind to you. You regretted coming back that day, if i were to be you. I wouldnt. Right now, i guess you've let go. I was still so looking forward to everything coming for us. You've chosen this path this time, it's not me. I didnt even want it, the decision is yours to make. Its alright, all that i've been doing was for this to happen as well. when i decided on giving up my doings to find you back again and live life with you, you did this to me. We're quits. Guess you want to let this end, and it'll. All that i initially planned to do, it's all in vain now. Lets jsut move on, move right on. Walk forward, and never look back. Im exhausted. Im not the guy you want, its a different me now i guess. So much for thinking there's a chance the past might just be back, when all that happen and i was a fool to believe you were mine. One day, you would really wake up and come to realise everything. So long my love, to our future and to our past. To our love and our commitment. To the days we got together, those days we spent everyday together. So long my girl. It's time for you to move on. Its a same old story, just a new begining.

Me, out of your life.

The sight of you.

Posting for yesterday as im too tired and sick. Went Sentosa early in the morning with brothers. And without Clovis :( Played and all under the sun, i can say i did enjoy myself. Perhaps? Feeling so sick and tired, my head was pain and giddy throughout. Met Clement there, Some of them went home. Me, Raymond, Simon, Lester, Clement, and his brother swam at his hotel. Fun but left early as they've probation ;( took 963 back and iw as seriously fucking sick. Went to night market with Lester, ate under the void deck and walked him home and went to Fajar to wait for my dad. Collapsed at my bed at woke up at 9 today. Sunburnt's hurting, and maybe going to Lot 1 later on. Short post and i'll post soon. Sorry, Badbye.

I miss you.

Play another game. A better game.

Haven't been posting and here i am. Another week of school it's sure going to be a struggle. A week of pain and just another week of enjoyment the week after. And i just hope it'd be something that makes me enjoy. Im really stucked at what to post now. When the mood's not there, everything just dont seem to go right as well. It's amusing how things like this can link to each other. Something i really want to is to get my hair cut, it's really cui now. I guess my parents would scold if i had to get those papers signed. Failed almost all, just some border line passes and that's it. I've really got to get back on the right track, after the break. Fucked up and im seriously speechless now. I guess i'll just end here as i dont want to add on to the misery im going through now. All will be better in time, Goodbye people. Takecare, it's a new week, make it a great one :)

Bring it towards me, and say it's not for me. 

Taking no explanation believing just on untrue facts.

Of all things that happened, im apologising from my heart. I know its of no use, but still i've got to say. I know things have already past and sorry isnt going to help in any way. It has all been over and my sorries are not of much use this i know. I may not know how life was for you then, at least i know you do feel happy. Making me feel as if im just a shit to you whom you dont even bother about my presence in your life. I accepted that fact and reality. Whether you're just hiding everything under that happy face of yours i know nothing. When i look so invisible to you, i know i've lost everything in you. Im just like a glass, standing beside you and you dont even know im here. In your life, im just a nobody anymore. For things yesterday, the day before and whatsoever, you've given up on me. I guess one day this day would come but i'd never know when, maybe it was supposed to be a little later, but bringing it forward will lengthen the time of those smiles and happiness within you. From the start, being together with you was a total shock, always thinking if i was really with you, it's more than a dream come true. All this while, i've accepted the fact that im not worth you. At times, it's not be who wants to leave you. No doubt i still love you, leaving you means i do, at least you'll be happy but the happiness would not be from  me. You very well know those problems i'm going through, as well as things i only could give you. It'd never be enough for you, this just shows im not the one for you. You may feel it as well, but just kept mum about it. Regreting being with me has always been inside you. After all, im just another irritating chap to you that you regret knowing. When my concerns becomes suffocation and my worries turned to make me an annoying man. I told myself to stop my doings. It wasnt easy as those actions were just by natural feelings and not leaving house with hesitation. It dosent matter if you do appreciate everything, cause i just know, even if i ever died for you, it wont be enough for you. Im not the only guy you need, im turning your youth upside down. I feel guilty but never with regrets. Because i've longed for the day you'd be happily engaged to another guy. Find someone that's worth you, im not. This isnt a typical line in every failed relationship. Its something i want you to do, not loving you isnt a hidden reason behind that line neither was wanting you out of my life. You'd always be in my heart, you'd be kept inside forever till the day i die that's when i tell you, im sorry. The promise about death im afraid i may not keep it going. Whether it matters anymore to you, the fact that im a nobody to you anymore kills all anger and hatred. Im not worth you, you'e worth someone a thousand times better than me. You're right, being with me is just like an early stage of hell. Im glad you regret being with me, you've finally woken up. Reality hurts, reality's heaven. Start the change, i never want you to get hurt in every relationship thereafter. I just hope you'd last long with anybody, for us and our memory. Take them away for im not even worth a little space in your mind worst still in your heart. Being with you would stay as the happiest momments in my life ever, for whatever may happens, cut those conclusion and listen to these facts. I'd never stop loving neither would i ever stop waiting. I thank you for every single time you tried so much to make me happy during our outings and to extend the time when we're together. And something im sincerely sorry for, is to waste your coming nine months of your life together with me. My deepest apologies. The day after tomorrow's the first. Just takecare wherever, whenever. I'd always be with you. My heart belongs to you and no other. To my love, it's all over now. We'll end with a bow and exit through different sides of that stage that potrays all our moments together. We'll take each and every single step away from each other, while yours is forward, mine can never be. For every step you take, i'll take one step back. Maybe if you stop enough, one day i'll find you back. Goodbye my love, my memory, my happiness, my life..

I will forever be the bad guy in your eye.

It hurts but we smile again.

Fucked up life.

i will never leave you.

You build my pain tolerance.

Even the best apples spoil one day.

Im sorry, for all of this have happen it was clearly my fault. I fail to provide you w those necessities. It's a new path of life you've got to take. The pursuit of happiness will begin from within. All and all was a killer, this was killed..

Im left with nothing.

HI your post as promised. I took 10mins just to enter your onsugar cus i culdnt get your pass and user right. But i still managed to ;) HAHA. Okkkkk i hope you're having fun there alright, i believe you are cus you sounded happy on the phone just now. That's great. Still left 4days before you come back. Seems so long so long. Take care ah, drink more water. Here very hot, wonder if your there the weather is how one. Anyway sorry for not being about to post for you anymore aft this but ill cont to sms you yeh. Im going sleep now. Call me sooooon, goodbye tc love you! :>

 Stacia.

I've been through all pains for you.

 Its Saturday today, home the whole day. Real boring, didnt touched my homework either. Im just mad tired. Father's overseas, going to be back tomorrow. I dont know what to say leh, just you know.. Wait till my blogging feeling come back then i post again k. Sorry, Gooebye world :)

Im the greatest failure.

I've walked a million miles with you and you left me behind.

School today and everyday. Haven't been doing homeworks recently. Im trying to catch up with school work, trying hard. I dont have much to say, Chinese New Year's coming in a week. Oh yeah, and i've a fugly hair. Goodbye :)

I just regret doing so, everything. Thanks for everything. But still, look at it at a different way. Get over it, you're feeling bad. Im felling worst..

My arms over you .